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Name: Leora
Country: United States
State: Ohio
Metro: Akron
Birthday: 6/10/1987
Gender: Female
Interests: painting, sewing, writing poetry, listening to music (folk, indie rock, oldies), traveling, belly dancing, running, playing with my cats, hanging out with friends
Occupation: Student
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AIM:  leoraanna
Member Since:
4/25/2005
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| Postcard from My Perfect World (07/26/05)
Here in my perfect world lying politicians are hung up by their toenails
and forced to listen to bluegrass music.
Of course, there is a choice of whether you want to wear clothing
and eating meat is a thing of the past.
In my perfect world you and your amazing ability to make me feel like the most beautiful woman in the world are as constant as the grass that grows beneath my bare feet.
In my perfect world figs grow on the endless beaches and pomegranates grow outside bedroom windows
and you make me feel like morning hair and premenstrual bloating could only make me more beautiful.
In my perfect world the worst thing that can happen is that one day I will lose a friend or a mother or a lover
not from distance or from an argument over godknowswhat
but from death (from old age) which, even in my perfect world, is a necessary part of life.
Little girls discover at the age of 6 that, indeed, makeup just makes them look silly and that size has nothing to do with love.
Little boys find that in order to be real men they mustn’t fight
and that hitting girls will not make girls like them more.
In my perfect world my alarm clock plays Joni Mitchell
and you stay in my arms until hunger consumes us
and we are forced to move to the kitchen. | | |
| have you ever:
1. smoked a cigarette - no
2. smoked a cigar - no
3. crashed a friend's car - not crashed. just bumped a little another friends car. but it was when i was 13 and i was supposed to be moving a car from the driveway and someone neglected to inform me that stick cars have three pedals. man did that ever suck.
4. stolen a car - no
5. been in love - yes
6. been dumped - yes
7. done a shot - unfortunately
8. been fired - no, only quit (even though one was forced and i probably would have been fired if i stayed because yoconos sucks my balls. oh yeah, you heard me, my balls!!!)
9. been in a fist fight - only once, and she totally deserved it. it wasnt really a fight though, i punched her a few times and she was to chicken shit to punch me back. ahh summer camp.
10. snuck out of your house - no
11. had feelings for someone who didnt have them back -yes
12. been arrested - no
13. made out with a stranger - no
14. gone on a blind date - no
15. lied to a friend - yes, for what i felt was a good reason or two
16. had a crush on a teacher- not my teacher, but a teacher
17. skipped school - yes, not skipped, mental health day.
18. seen someone die - no
19. been on a plane - yes (and will be tonight)
20. thrown up in a club - no
21. done drugs- no
22. miss someone right now - yes
23. laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by - yes. ooh clouds!!
24 made a snow angel - yes
25. played dress up - yes!!
26. cheated while playing a game - not cheated for real, just for kicks
27. been lonely - yes
28. fallen asleep at work/school - oh yeah
29. used a fake id - only for student movie tickets
30. felt an earthquake -no
31. touched a snake - yes
32. ran a red light - yes, well you see, i was on the phone getting directions to get to some silly cross country dinner and the person on the phone said 'go straight, dont stop' so i did and half way through i realized that i should have noticed that i was going right through a red light. good thing noone saw.
33. had detention - no
34. been in a car accident - yes
35. hated the way you look? not hated, just didn't like it for a while, but not anymore
36. witnessed a crime - maybe, i dont know, im sure its happened, i just didnt notice it
37. been lost - yes. one time my parents left me at a gift shop at disney world and walked away leaving me alone crying for 10 minutes until my brother ran back to save me.
38. been to the opposite side of the country - yes
39. felt like dying - ive felt like i was dying, but i didnt want to.
40. cried yourself to sleep - yes
41. played cops and robbers - no. they wouldnt let me play
42. karaoke - yes
43. done something you told yourself you wouldn't - yes
44. laughed till some kind of beverage came out of your nose - yes. its only funny if your beverage is chunk free (and by that i mean a smoothie or a chocolate chip milkshake)
45. caught a snowflake on your tongue - last week!
46. kissed in the rain - that would be nice now wouldnt it.
47. sang in the shower - of course
48. made love in a park - it would be nice to do it in a park, on the grass, on a nice summer night... :)
49. had a dream that you married someone -yes
50. glued your hand to something - other than to itself? (and by that i mean finger to finger)
51. got your tongue stuck to a flag pole - no
52. worn the opposite sex's clothes - of course. you think a suit and tie is only for men? hell no! looks so much hotter on a woman!
53. been a cheerleader - a radical cheerleader! and only for a little bit.
54. sat on a roof top - right outside my window
55. talked on the phone all night -yes
56. ever too scared to watch scary movies alone - yes. sometimes even with people
57. played chicken fight - only in the pool
58. been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on - yes
59. been told you're hot by a complete stranger -yes
60. broken a bone - no
61. had a 3-some? - no
62. laugh so hard you cry - all the time
63. mooned/flashed someone - of course. at summer camp once i got the 'totally topless' award for walking around in my bra, and sometimes not.
64. cheated on a test - kinda. off my hand but i dont think off someone elses test. except in french once or twice i think. except for senior year in college prep math when cory reckner and i kinda shared all our work. good times.
65. been kicked out of your house - no but ive wanted to leave.
66. blacked out from drinking - no
67. played a prank on someone - of course | | |
| oh wow... sometimes there is a time when one must be a very ballsy bitch. and tonight was one of them...
here's the whole story...
last night at 2 in the mornign my fathers crazy psycho girlfriend called me to tell me that she cant stand my father anymore and could i please tell him that she oesnt want to see him or have anything to do with his life and all that and bla bla bla...
i told her ok and hung up. i then called my brothers, we had a conference call at 2 in the morning. it was cute. it turns out that she called all of us to tell us that.
at 230 i went to sleep again only to be awoken again at 3 in the morning by the crazy psycho girlfriend asking if i had done it yet. i told her no im sleeping.
and then today i called my dad with my brother (another conference call) and we didnt mention her calling us but he told us that the two of them are doing great and that they are creating beautiful artwork together and that we would be proud of the work that shes doing and bla bla bla...
then later i talked to my mother and we decided that i needed to tell my father that she had called and disturbed my slumber like she did (the secont time she called my i was in my almost hypnotic state and when i woke up i was so shaky and like my left side wasnt working properly because i was awoken at the worst part in sleeping) and he siad that he knew and that she had told him that she called us. but yet, things were still good between them. if thats what good is like i sont want to see bad.
and he told me that i have a right to feel this way and that i even have a right to tell her how i felt. so i did.
after i hung up with him, and ashley send me some virtual hugs, i called crazy psycho bitch.
her machine picked up so i told it the following:
"hi julie, its leora. i just wanted to call and tell you that calling me last night at 3 in the morning was a really fucking shitty thing to do. i was sleeping. and i didnt really want to hear you talking at 3 in the morning. in fact i never really want to hear you talking because i dont really like you. at all. and i cant stand your voice and when you talk and i would really appreciate it if you only called me if it is a life or death situation and my father has died or something. thank you in advance for not calling me ever again and (in a very sweet soft leora voice) have a good night! bye..."
and that was that. i have been waiting 3 years to say that to her and finally now i do? jeez. my hert was beating so hard i couldnt believe it. i am aalmost sure that shell call me either tonight at 3 in the morning, because shes a fucking idiot, or shell go crying to my father that i told her off and either tell him about it or have him listen to my message and then insist that he call me and tlak to me and have me appologize, or something silly like that. but since i dont think shes as ballsy as i am she wont be the one to call me i dont htink. but who knows. she had the balls to call my grandparents at 2 in the morning too!
so well see what happens. anyway. on the upside! even though i had a really really boring day it wasnt all that bad. i watched some good tv, talked to some good people, thought about going out, which i am going to do tomorrow. why? because i decided that since it is kinda coolish now i can go get myself some late fall early winter gloves to wear. this is part of leora is not biting her fingers and nails thing. i havent put my fingers in my mouth in like 5 days! and thats a huge thing! so to celebrate this, and i am going to make sure that i keep it up, i am going to get a manicure before i come home. a preasant to me  im doing it because i want someone to take nice care of them for a little bit, and since i dont get color on my finger nails, itll just be a strengthening clear. but yay for strengthening anyway because i have started taking calcium and i am determined that it will help my nails from being like tissue paper. and if i keep ahava lotion on my hands like when i am most likely to put them in my mouth, theni wont do it! its great! once theyre nice i wont want to because i would have spent money on them and all that.
but other than that. nothing much has happened today. ill write more tomorrow im sure because i will have nothing to do again. im going to slepe until 10 so i can hear a prairie home companion because its my favorite part of the day. and ill do some homework from like 12-4 or so and then well see where i am.
have a good night everyone! i know i will! (not as good as my tomorrow though. heh. yay for having no roommate all day and having the room all to myself!  ) | | |
| so almost a whole week has gone by and it has not gone by fast enough. like, it actually did go by really fast, but not fast enough for me. i am so excited to come home you all have absolutely no idea! the countdown is 12 days until ohio, 13 until akron!! woohoo!! the only thing that sucks is that i only have the weekend, and i have to manage to see everyone special in that one weekend? ill have to figure it out. but the only hard part will be coming back to school again. i just have to remember that ill be coming back home for thanksgiving weekend and even earlier for it so i can be with chelsea and nathan and everyone else with chelseas family and i am so excited!!! ill come home wither the 16th or 17th for thanksgiving break, whenever chelsea says i should and whenever i can leave school alright. i dont think that any of my teachers will have a problem with me taking any tests or turning in anything early for them so i can leave. i can just say that theres a family situation or something. even though i dont like to lie, ill ask my mother what she thinks would be a good idea. oh yes. i know. im silly. i ask my mother for help when i have to get out of things.
so this week is going to go really fast for me i htink. monday night starts rosh hashana (the jewish new year) and were having a huge dinner at roneets with robbin and some of roneets friends, because thats what you do. and im going to stay the night and then come to class on tuesday at 12. and then after death class im going to go back to roneets house, for yes, another feast. and then ill come home and then ill wake up and itll be wednesday already! and then itll be the weekend and ill be coming home that tuesday!! yay!!!
man, im so excited about it all i just cant stop smiling and being excited!
so im still working on my schedule for the weekend, once i know when im free ill post it, and if you want to see me, let me know. and just so you know, at some point im gonig to be having a party at chelseas house, probably sunday afternoon or some other time im not sure... but ill let you know and youre all invited 
ok... umm... its 121 and im tired and my coffees cold, its bad when i still drink it this late when its cold.
good night!!!
ps. molly, feel better!!!! *cold, i order you to go!!* michelle, ill talk to you soon for a prolonged amount of time, chelsea, you too! i love you both and i hope you have a great day tomorrow (err, today...)
"Teeth in the Grass"
by Iron And Wine
And when you give me you clothes
and when we're lovers at last
fresh air, perfume in your nose
there will be teeth in the grass
And when you give me your house
when we're all brothers at last
there will be food in our mouths
there will be teeth in the grass
And when there's nothing to want
when we're all brilliant and fast
when all tomorrow's are gone
there will be teeth in the grass | | |
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and i should be expecting some underwear in the mail soon (oh you have no idea how excited i am and how sexy it is... 